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Brad4rd87
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Name: Bradford
Gender: Male
Interests: blowing fire,messing with nun chucks, DDR, breakdancing, anime, watching movies, listen to music,rollerblading, workout, run, hanging out wit friends and looking at stars
Expertise: breakdancing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Real Estate
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Quanfu4
Member Since:
11/24/2004
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| ok well its been awhile since ive used this so called "xanga" took me awhile trying to find the place to blog,upload pics etc etc etc. im so outta this! but i like xanga cause you can write like a jounral about urself. all my words are nonsense and no ones gonna read every word i type. so i feel really free on here to type :)
today went to school like normal. math sucks ass! hanging out wit friends is awesome. went miniature golfing with a couple of my buddys. then went back to school and took a nap there for like hour and half or so. then went home,eat, and breakdance. felt tired to break even though i filled myself with food. wasnt really feeling the motivation. i was motivated to do headspins but nothing else really bleh :P
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| WOW its felt like AGES since i was on here. im just blogging because i havent been on here for awhile. this is a good place to write diary/ journal entries. i was looking back on my old entries and im like WOW i went through hell of alot of troubles! man hella depressing back in the day, but im fine now :)
im taking summer classes. summer classes are crap except tennis, thats a ton of fun! math sucks. taking history of jazz online and that going ok, except emailing him hw can be a problem bleh :P other than that its alight. im working and breakdancing like usual and hanging out with my friends alot :) sadly im still single after all these years lol and still going through alot of shity love problems, but not so much anymore. so things are going good with me :)
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| well i gotta make a new blog while im here.
the spike on the thorns stick to me vigirously
i choke, scream, and struggle for my life
my skin scrapes, i need more tape
the heart is barely sticking together
blood still pumps,memories come back
theres still life living in the heart
i thought i died, but i guess thats a lie
the old part of me still lives
whip lashed, squashed and destroyed
i still live to this day
being stitched up little by little everyday
i felt like writing a lil poetry. even though i suck at least i gave it a try bleh :P
ive been breakdancing a TON!!!! getting WAYYYYYYYYYY better!!!! :) im on summer while other people are still in school LOL XD! i started summer like 2 weeks ago or maybe 3? i started summer May 3? i think somewhere in the frist week of May :) I LOVE THE SUN AND I WANT TO GET MEGA TAN SO I LOOK CAMBODIAN OR HAWAIIAN :)YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
tennis me play lots of tennis and i REALLY want to get a car this summer. so im working for my mom right now and eventually find a normal job. im gonna take summer classes to bleh :P planning to take nutrition,first aid and ceramics at scc. so see what happens :)
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| today i went breakdancing. ate at a friends house, stopped by at a friends house and talk on phone, took bus home, slept on friends couch,showered and BAM here i am bleh :P
well it has been awhile since ive updated my love life lol. well im fine now. im jealous of all my friends who have been dating for more than 9 months or more bleh :P SOOOO JEALOUS! im still jealous of couples who go out together and have fun.
today i was talking to a friends mom. her life is complicated. ok well shes married and has 3 children. shes been having problems with her husband cause whenever they have a conversation they would argue. so she was praying for a guy to walk into her life, who had a citizenship in us and canada and also treat her nice. and BAM her wish came true. he met the guy at church and the guy wanted to marry her even though she was married.so now shes confused wheather she should stay with her husband or go with the new guy. crazy hugh? right now shes working with her husband and talking things out. so i dont know?
before this. this girl name Susan was praying for 6 months for a bf and BAM she finally got one, whose all the way in Cali. and they talk everyday and play this game called maplestory together. they actually met together. im AMAZED they have suchan amazing connection!
right now i come to realize that maybe prayer does work. maybe if i keep praying the right person might come in my life. its just gonna take time *sigh* right now theres this girl i like. well not exactly like, i mean i think about her, but i try not to cause things are just messed up. ughhhh whatever, this is just stupid. im just gonna pray and see whatever happens *sigh*
ive been a rebel Christian ever since summer cause i had ALOT of problems in my life and i blamed God for my messed up crazy love life. if a Christian person heard this they would be like "you shouldnt be blaming God" you know what i know its wrong but thats how i feel. i didnt give up being a Christian, i just became a REALLY REALLY weak Christian and i end up not remembering much about the Bible. to this day i am still a weak Chrisitan. when i was in middle school. i use to have a strong fire in my heart for God, but it started to fade as i went into highschool and the fire died last summer. i cant even remember the last time i was strong with God.
im making an effort to be a stronger Christian. i dont blame God now, but it still hurts that i had to go through such a painful process because of religion. right now i dont care what religion the person is, just as long as she loves me and respects my religion. if it wasnt for this 1 person. THIS 1 PERSON!!!! i felt like i was played. i would have still been with that girl right NOW, if it wasnt for her! can you believe im still friends with that 1 person, who crushed my world into ashes? who kicked me in the fire, and left me their to wither in pain and agnoy (this is just an expression) yup im still friends with her. why am i still friends wtih her? i guess i have that characteristic in me to accept people. well now im just left with a scar on my heart, but you know what. this will just be a lesson for me to teach to other people who have been through my situation or who are in that situation.
why in the world am i talking about the past????? this is STUPID and old stuff to be telling you. BLEH! well who cares. people barely even read this. so im kind of talking to myself, but whatever. i think this is the only place i can be emo, open and happy to talk about things :)
these are questions that will make me curious for the rest of my life.
why be with someone you know youre not going to marry?
why be in a long distance relationship when youre not going to see that person a long time? u cant see each other, cant build a relationship just through talking for many years.
im sure you all heard this from friends "why do you like him/her?" the answear they give "i dont know or i just like him/her"
isnt it true that people with common interest do better in marriages then people who have different interest.
well im tired of thinking. this world of how humans think and work in wierd ways is giving me a headache right now. ughhh im feeling emo right now lol. i feel like puking!!!!!
for now im just gonna pray and see what happens :) im actually better these days. im doing alot of breakdancing moves that could actually kill me LOL! like spin in the air upside down. the worst injury was over stretching my thumb. i rather land on my back HARD then have an over stretched thumb. my thumb is still healing *sigh*
if i were to die right now. the last person i would like to be with is the last girl i saw cause shes soooo AMAZING and TALENTED and the only girl that keeps a spirit strong in me! and if that girl did have a bf. i would tell her i would like to live the rest of my life with her, get married, have kids and grow old with her because thats how special she is to me. life is tooooo complicated. i dont know what to expect? i dont know what would happen? for now im just gonna wait it out and see where it goes.
i will not say names in these blogs cause i think its too much cause some people actually read this lol.
oh yeah im planning to change college and change major. but im not going to say to ANYONE! so excited to get OUT OF THIS SCHOOL!!!!
ok i gotta sleep now since its 2am.
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| OK TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO STILL READ XANGA THESE DAYS!!!! my love life is crappy. ive been through HELLO TWICE!!!!! and it HELLO sucks! i think ive been through rough love wheather than all my friends and yeah its depressing!
you know what im just going to use xanga to talk about my stupid love life and how it goes cause thats all i think about most of the days. when i see couples holding hands together or kissing or something. i always tell myself Man i WISH i had that!!!! man i really want to share my love life with someone. if i had a gf, i want to give her flowers and things and especially hugs and kisses! ok well u know my other blog entry for dec 22,06. well that person is gone now cause shes taken by some guy from asia. and that other girl i was talking about who was new to me, turns out shes not my type cause shes too spoiled and too much gangster for me, plus shes picky which i found out. shes picky with everything! oh yeah she can be a jerk too! she even admited it. so shes kind of like a friend to me.
and one more thing about myself. im a liar, ive lied in the past, but some people dont believe in change and time. you know what being a Chrisitan kind of sucks. cause relitives all want you to date some Christian person. man only if i met that one person eariler on myspace cause she helped me alot talk about religion and how we should embrace the difference instead of making it look like a difference. the way i see things now. as long as their a good person and believe in a different religion. i dont care now these days. even though i go to a Christian college. i really dont care about going to chapel and taking STUPID DUMB bible classes!!!!
i cant wait to leave Northwest University!!!!!! TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAS HEARD ABOUT NORTHWEST UNIVERSITY!!!!! JUST TO LET YOU KNOW IT IS A GAY AND STUPID PLACE!!!!! AND I CANT WAIT TO TRANSFER THE HECK OUT OF THERE!!!!!! bible classes is a waste of money and time, going to chapel is LAMO!!!!! and the college doesnt offer as much classes as a community college would, which i find out to be HECKA GHETTO!!!!!
im actually staying for another semsester so i could have a longer summer. plus they have good business classes there. oh yeah summer starts on the first week of MAY :) so to all u other college kids out there. im going to be having fun in the sun, while ur still in SCHOOL!!!!!hahahahahahhahaa then when i transfer i'll start school in september :) so i'll have 5 MONTHS OF SUMMMER!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! I CANT WAIT!!!!!! I CANT WAIT TO TRANSFER!!!!!! FYI i have no interest in ANYBODY at my school. why????? cause it lacks asians, plus the clubs there are LAMO!!!! u know what the whole school is LAME!!!!! and i Absolutely HATE THE RD!!!!!! that guy stole my soft nun chucks. im like WTFreak?!?!??!?!?!?! how can i hurt someone????? i really want to beat the RD up. i was planning to write the F word on his door or just scratch a huge line with my pocket knife on his door :) man i wish i had a gf so i wouldnt have to put this on here. you know when ur in a relationship u have to call him/her up. well i couldnt cause i didnt have one. it would be kind of wierd to just call up a friend and just say "you know what my RD is being stupid and i want to beat the living crap out of him!"
u know what im done for writing for today. cause im feeling emo. ughhhhhhhhhhh!!!! thats it for me peaceout until another time in life.
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